Take each step at a time - You can't lose your spirit~

11 July 2009 @ 09:50 pm

EMETOPHOBIA!!!!

(Emetophobia is an intense, irrational fear or anxiety pertaining to vomiting. This specific phobia can also include subcategories of what causes the anxiety, including a fear of vomiting in public, a fear of seeing vomit, a fear of watching the action of vomiting or fear of being nauseated.)

So that's the technical name of the main thing causing me shit in my life? Now to make it go away.... Had roughly 3 panic attacks over it driving around for over an hour with my friends yesterday.... for fucks sake just leave me along you ridiculous irrational fear! -_-

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05 July 2009 @ 12:58 pm

Goooood books = <3

Don't you just love it when you can burrow under the covers of your bed with a book you know you love and just spend the rest of the night reading away despite the time? Especially in winter when it's freezing and there is no better sanctuary than under your covers with the electric blanket happily thrumming.

I have two books I need to read that my friends have lent me, but last night I was really craving reading a book that is sort of 'feel good'. I ended up dying to read one of ultimate fav books:

I ended up reading 190 pages in one go until it was 2am lol. This book never gets old...... It never fails to get me so emotional... If I ever ge to be a writer, I honestly want to write stories like Melina Marchetta. They are so simple and yet so powerful and emotional that you can reread them over and over again and feel the same amount of love for it as you felt when you first read it years ago.......

I mean, gosh, for the whole story Mia, the mother, is depressed and suffering in her bed... You don't really know what the old Mia was like - all you have are memories from Francesca, the daughter. And yet, you grow to love Mia so much!! When she makes the slightest progress with her depression - like actually managing to eat a tiny bit of food, you can't help but burst into tears because you are so hopeful that Mia will be able to continue slowly getting better! I mean, holy crap!!! We readers have never met the old Mia, and yet we can be affected so much by the depressed Mia making small progress? I realllllllllly want to be able to affect readers like that in my stories....

My god, this quote about Francesca dealing with her mum's depression always gets me instantly choked up: 'I do the deals-with-God thing. Make her better...make us all better and I'll change the world for you. But God doesn't talk to me. It's because every night I lie here with music in my ears and i say my prayers and fall asleep in the middle of them. He only talks to people like Mia. People he thinks are worth it. Because they have passion. They have something. I have nothing... I'm a waste of space......'

I guess I chose to read this book last night above all the other books I love because I can sort of relate to the mother... I mean, I don't have acute depression like she does, but the anxiety disorders I have right now are just as confounding and I've certainly had days when I was too scared to leave my bed. I love that the message throughout the book is that there is no easy answer to the Mia's depression... There is no one sole cause of it, or one sole answer to curing it. It takes time...and that's exactly what I am facing right now with my anxiety disorders.... When Mia makes slight progress with her depression, it gives me hope that the small progressions I make with my disorder will also get me closer and closer to complete recovery. ^^

Besides, Mia is not the only reason why I love the story.... It's really amazing how Francesca slowly learns (despite her typical teenage attitude getting in the way) that your true friends are the ones that are there for you in the bad times... You might not even realise that they are your true friends until something like that happens, but you sure learn quickly that they are your real friends. It's really beautiful to see how those four girls (and 3 guys) slowly build a huge bond together without even realising it! Such beautiful friendship!!

And of course, the unbelievably strong bond between Francesca and her lil bro Luca is so touching! And I relate to it so much because I am exactly the same way with my older bro. What was my fav quote from the book about them? 'I can't tell horror brother and sister stories about Luca and me. We're crazy about each other and our arguments are limited to who gets control over the TV remote between 7:00pm and 7:30.' Yeppp absolutely the same between me and my bro. Only it generally fighting over internet time and I'm usually the one being the most forceful in arguments LOL!

PLUSSSSS one of the girls, Tara, is such an opinionated person in regards to social justice issues. And why hello, so am I! Yet another thing I commmmpletely relate to in this book! <3

Gah, I could gush on about this book until the cows come home so I better leave it there and actually finish it.. It's currently sitting beside me begging for me to finish it. But I don't want to finish it because I don't want it to end even though I've read it thousands of times..... *sigh* The joys of a great book, I tell ya! lol

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01 July 2009 @ 06:36 pm

Karaoke dayyyy

Phewwwww! Just got back from an awesome day out at the city with

talyssa_yasha ! We went all out and let our asian urges take over us hahaha. We went to a Korean restaurant, Japanese purikura stands, Korean Karaoke, and Korean supermarket... Muahahh! Boy did I get my freak on in karaoke even though I can't read hangul and had to mumble most of the lyrics hahahah! But I wasn't too bad with Jap songs.. ^^

( Got my karaoke freak on lols )

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26 June 2009 @ 01:36 pm

MJ AND FARRAH DEAD?!!!! O________________O

NO NOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NOOOOOO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO!!!

JUST NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MJ dead?!!! NO WAYY!!! I'm still in shock........ God, the day I slept in till midday, and decided to not go on the net for breakfast like normal, but instead watch Mighty Boosh whilst typing the nexr chapter of my fic up, is the day everyone hears that MJ died except me. I heard when my bro randomly called me from his lunch break for a chat and happened to mention it sucked that MJ died. I was like screaming "WHATTT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" fifty times into the phone lol. Oh, and then he tells me that poor Farrah Fawcett died from cancer as well.... I knew she was in a rough patch and things were looking extremtly bleak, and that she had already read out the last rites, but it's too sad to take in!

So right now I'm just in major shock from Michael Jackson AND Farrah Fawcett's death. And last night I was in shock about something else (as moon1084 knows very well) so it feels like this whole week is just one shock after another! @____@

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24 June 2009 @ 10:53 am

Hellllo holidayssss! >D

Man, am I getting hyped up to be able to socialise again, ever so slowwwwly!!! :D

~ Plans with Talyssa so far:
- City Korean karaoke day next wednesdayyyy! I've gotta get practising my Epik High, DBSK and Big Bang!
- Gee Dance day, when we record our version of SNSD's Gee with slutty makeup, high-heels and everythannng! XD

~ Plans with Gen so far:
- Gossip/catch-up session after my psychologist appointment on thurs~

~ Plans with Louisa so far:
- Movies Wednesay - Seeing YEAR ONE
- 'Australia Ponderland Day' - Watching 'Australia' movie and then eps of Russell Brand's Ponderland
- Going to the city for Galaxy bookstore

~ Plans with Rachael so far:
- Massive 'Mighty Boosh' marathon~~~

~ Plans with Beth so far:
- Catch up day for sure! We are by no means finished talking everything Japanese! >D

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23 June 2009 @ 12:12 pm

Jay Chou LOLS

Okay, so today I went to the usual website that gives you transport information for buses, trains and ferries to look up a bus timetable I needed, and low and behold I saw a face that I recognised on the screen.

JAY CHOU.

...

Yes, I knew he was coming to Sydney, my bro already had tickets to his concert, but you've gotta understand, Asian bands who give concerts in Australia really aren't promoted because the general Australian public don't know Asian bands. The only place you see promotion for Asian bands is in China Town. Not even RAIN was promoted anywhere but in China Town. So you can imagine my surprise when I saw the most popular travel website had details for getting to Jay Chou hahahahaha.

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22 June 2009 @ 11:11 pm

Reminiscing...

After watching some eps of "Happy Together Friends" when Heechul and Yoochun went on it, I'm totally feeling nostalgic about my own time in primary school. So I figured I'd do my own episode of Happy Together Friends by remembering random things from primary school~

Anna - In year One we'd play 'Matilda' and pretend we could transport instantly from one corner of the junior playground to the other. We'd also go on adventures underneath her house, and chill out in her spa.

Jonathan - We'd play happy families with him... He'd actually hang out with us girls and pretend to be a husband bahahahah!

Brett - Boy did I have a whopper crush on him. Used to chase him around the playground yelling "I LOVE YOU!" and drawing his name in my diary. LOL! And since he was Canadian I used to beg him to say the word 'calculator' coz he said it so cutely in his accent.

David - He used to enjoy (for whatever masochistic reasons) charging straight into the side of the library to try and knock himself out........

Susannah - Even though at one stage we were supposed to be best friends, she once teased me for having EGG on my sandwich - she had decided that eggs smelled and therefore I was gross or something...... And once we were playing in her garage but I slipped in some oil and totally stained half of my jumper with it.... But on a nicer note, we played basketball in her garden.... LOL!

Carla - I'd go to her house most times after school and we'd eat lebananese bread rolls whilst playing teachers in her bedroom and dancing to Aqua's BARBIE GIRL in her garden with our Baby Born dolls...

Daniel ~~Gibbo~~ - I had several unfortunate ball dancing moments with him because I was too nice to say no to him.... And he used to have a giant hole in his pants right where his ass was. Charming.

Michael ~~Zappa~~ - He used to repeatedly ask me 'Who do you like better? Brett or me?" when we were in year 3...bahaha.

Benjamin - He'd gone on a holiday to China or something in the holidays in year one, and brought back all this Chinese food... But the piece I tried tasted absolutely disgusting.... Awkward! lol

Angela - I used to play at her house whilst drawing out own 'books' on heaps of computer paper and stapling it together... I am sure those 'books' were......erm.....great.... lol!

Gerado - He would ALWAYS scratch his chin in class whenever he was talking or thinking about something...

Amy L - we'd create a mini olympics course in my backyard and record ourselves commentating on it...

Tristan - we wrote a crazy poem about baked beans making people fart and even made our own beans out of cardboard - I dunno why we gave them hula-skirts though... Oh, and she fell into my mother's rosebush and broke several pieces off it. OHHH and the best memory of all - when we were riding in paddleboats and literally got wedged between the riverbank and the pole with depth readings on it... People having a picnic nearby had to help us get unstuck by pushing us! Friggen priceless! XD

Gen - We'd go do tennis together in the afternoons and try and hide from our couches at the bottom of the car because one was a paedophile, and the other just creeped us out. And then there was the time she swallowed a fly.... baaha! Oh, and once we made a radio show about our annnnoying brothhherrrrs, and composed a song featuring the lyrics "Barrrr-bie, feda-feda-federation, Henry Parks!"

Amy ~~what's wong?~~ - Naturally the strongest memory is our wool mummies fiasco. We were crocheting and our wool got all tangled up to the point where we both were tangled in the wool like egyptian mummies... And the time we used to make jokes about Bing Lee "don't forget my 5 cents change..." WTFFF was that joke even about?!!! XD

Bethany - The human dictionary who was my rival for Brett lol! I remember once going with her to take her little bro to the dentist.. O_O

Gemma - I remember the time one of my guinea pigs peed on her sports skirt... XD

Stephanie - My pokemon and Sailor Moon buddy. Once we even went to a swimming pool and pretended to be sailor scouts doing cool transformations under the water.... XD

Michael O - Sadly enough, the biggest memory I have of him was in year 3 when our teacher told the class to act normal around him because over the weekend his father had committed suicide.... ><

Shaun ~~Savvas~~ - The shorty with the funny laugh!

Kirk - Had the neatest handwriting! He was such a gentleman!

Zoe - .......I used to be scared of her pool cleaner coz it sounded like a ticking bomb about to explode... That is the nicest thing I can say that doesnt start with the letter S and rhyme with mutt.

Amy S - I remember her obsession with the song MILKSHAKE when we did jazz ballet together... That, and Brett liked her so grr. LOL!!!!!!

Tessa - Leader of the 'popular group' with big boobs.. There was always one of them, eh!

And there are others of course, but for them my main memory is just their unique faces.... ^^

AWWW the years of 1995-2001!

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19 June 2009 @ 06:19 pm

Motivation, where for art thou? T_T

Okay, here is the lowdown dear journal,

My 1st semester Japanese exam is tomorrow. Did I study much today? HELL to the NO! But it wasn't deliberate....well not really, anyway.
It's like I put so much friggen effort into studying all week that my brain has developed an intolerance to anymore study. Take yesterday for example, I spent every spare minute memorising kanji! But it's decircuited my brain! The thought of even lifting up my jap text book makes me feel awful - like my brain is now illergic to it!

So I figure that a bit of revision in the morning of the exam is gonna have to suffice. Because I just CANNOT find any part of my brain willing to take anymore information. And the only reason why I'm ranting about it here is because I'm the type to total go ballistic if I don't study every spare minute for an exam.... Oh the perfectionist guilt I am feeling! T____T

So instead of studying, I spent my whole day today reformatting my laptop ~~YESSS it's mine now! My bro gave it to meee! :D.~~ Everything is goooonnnnne from the harddrive! Including that asshole virus! GOOD RIDDANCE I SAY! But it means I have to install all the programs and drivers from scratch... Which means I have been given an excellent procrastination tool. XD

SOOOOOOOOOO in celebration I've decorated the laptop with a nice Yunjae wallpaper, muahahh!

Andddd I've been working on a Vince Noir mood theme! It's so perfecccct, Noel Fielding has the funniest expressions. XDDD

Now, in honour of my total Mighty Boosh obsession right now, I shall end this post with dancing Naboo! :D

Go Naboo, go! Use that inner shamen groove! XD

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13 June 2009 @ 02:19 pm

Life is too precious...

Just found out that a girl I once knew committed suicide on the weekend. She left my highschool in year 8 or so, so I haven't seen her since, but she used to be in my classes and I do remember her!

I'm always so sensitive to suicide...more than any other type of death. I can't handle it... I know that people with inner demons invisible to the human eye feel they have to do it and perhaps even feel they are a burden on people, but even still I always get so angry when I hear of suicides. It sounds awful but I just feel people who commit suicide are so damn selfish!

Especially since I know someone who is dying from cancer at the moment. He has children and the doctors said he only had 3 weeks left to live. He's still battling on though, but it seems inevitable that unless a miracle happens he will die.

So... it's like, one person I know didn't want to live their life, whilst the other person I know wants to hold on to life but is having it ripped away from them without consent. Where is the justice in all of it? Why must two lives be lost now? It's just.....too sad.

I vow this here for my friends and family to see: No matter what life throws at me, I will never commit suicide! Not ever!

Regardless though, wherever that girl now is, I hope she is at peace and that her family can slowly heal. It's really sad to see all the RIP messages on her facebook where there are so many photos of her looking HAPPY with life. But I guess that's quite a common deception with suicidal people...T___T

17 May 2009 @ 10:42 pm

FREAKIEST DAY WHILST THE SUN SHINES?!!!

Okay so I figured that everything that has happened to be before NOON today is worth writing about here. In the future when I sit and think 'hmm, i wonder what one of the freakiest days of my life was like?' I can read this entry and remember the craziness... -_-;;

In a nutshell: Late bus ---> took a detour coz of police blocking off road due to armed robbery ---> bus rage.

( Why must today be so violent? The sun is out!.... )

And so the moral of the story is as always: when times are tough do NOT under any circumstances say the phrase: "Things can't get any worse"... coz they will.

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08 May 2009 @ 10:37 am

oh for effs sake!!

Oh are we effed or what!!!

That virus that came off my aunt's pc is the worst I have EVER encountered in my little life.

Not only will none of the top antimalware programs be able to get rid of it completely, but it spreads like a mofo!!

It traveled through the USB port into my dad's digital camera and fucked it up.

Which means it would have also travelled into my ipod and my external harddrive - 160 gigs of my whole life (personal photos, k-pop clips, j-dramas, YunJae folders, my fanfics etc etc etc)

That is what is worrying me the most. The only way to get rid of that trojan vundo is to reformat the laptop. But you can't just reformat an ipod, digital camera, or external harddrive - at least not without erasing everything on there.

So in sumarry, I am not in a very nice mood lately. I have shitloads of assignments due, anxiety levels increasing, and a virus fucking up practically every USB-operated device in the household.

I am at a loss of what to do.

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27 April 2009 @ 08:49 pm

AHHHHHH

Holy friggen crap i am having THE WORST DAY IMAGINABLE!!!!

I've been getting anxiety over uni starting tomorrow

A friend I care dearly about broke up with her boyfriend and is suffering

I was notified of an end of course exam for Sociology of Media when it was NEVER MENTIONED IN THE COURSE OUTLINE!!!

And now the fucking laptop is suffering big time!!

A VIRUS IS FUCKING UP THE LAPTOP!!!!!

When I sign in, it makes the sign in music and then all that loads is the friggen Britney Spears wallpaper!!!! The only way to open programs is by using the ctrl+alt+del option to 'start a new task' which is how I'm doing this now! THERE ISN'T EVEN A START MENU BAR DOWN THE BOTTOM!!! It's just BLANK!

Don't tell me there was a virus on my mum's USB! Coz everything started happening when I put it in this laptop! FUCK FUCK FUCK!! I could cry and pull my hair out and a million other nasty things.

Thanks so much fate, for fucking up my life when I really didn't need anymore fucking trouble!!!

At least I have an amazing brother who happens to own said laptop and was too busy comforting me to get mad in any way!

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29 March 2009 @ 08:38 pm

Lexapro tablets~

I am so, so, so, so, SO relieved right now!! I thought lots of things were wrong with me mentally and physically... I was getting worried that I'd somehow changed into some crazy person but it turns out they are just side effects of the medication I am taking for my anxiety! I thought it was meee!! THANK GOD~!!!!

The side effects I am feeling (but didn't realise they were just side effects XD):
- sensitive stomach/heart burn
- Non-existent libido. (Seriously... It disappeared completely. I'm not highly sexual as a person but I did have my fair share of horny moments when reading certain Yunjae fics LMAO. But now I feel indifferent even in the hottest smut... How I suffer! T___T)
- Constant yawning. (I thought I was a freak or something!!! But no, constant yawning is extremely common! :D)
- Drowsiness 24/7, mixed with need to sleep 24/7 lol. Honestly, no wonder every day I sleep for like 3 hours before dinner is laid out despite having a perfect night's sleep. >___>
- Short-term memory loss & difficulties concentrating. (My head is a fog.. It's been really hard coping with that during university days. It's hard to even write my own fic! T_T)
- No energy (pfft, I hate having no energy...
- Need to eat a lot (which means I have to be careful I don't start putting on weight -_-;;)

But after talking to my dad (thank god he's a scientist XDDD) I think I can understand why all of those side effects happen. The drug is one that slows down the brain so that anxiety is reduced... If the brain function slows down of course there is gonna be mega drowsiness and short-term memory loss. And if there is lack of energy then of course people would have problems reaching orgasms.... LMAO why am I even mentioning all of that here? I'm sort of fascinated by it I guess... XD

So yes. I am not a freaky person, I am just suffering side effects from taking the highest dose of Lexapro available. WHAT A RELIEF is all I can say! =3

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18 March 2009 @ 11:40 pm

McFly concert - 15th March '09

Okay, normally I keep my concert recount posts friends-locked, but this time I'm in charge or recounting our 2nd trip to the McFly concert and my friends want a copy so here I go! ^^;;

Me and mopizm 's crazy McFly concert adventuressss! 15th March 2009! :D

How to sum our crazy experiences up?
- St Patrick's Day parade
- Horse shit/Vomit/Urine smells
- Butt-spanking :D
- Yaoi fanservice
- Dougie's (bassist) smelly armpits
- Massive technical errors
- Hordes of scary screaming teenyboppers

All in all, was it a good experience? Abso-fuckin-lutely, baby! :D

( Our crazy adventures before the concert... )

( Like the yaoi fanservice picture? Here is the concert report! :D )

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Current Music: McFly - Smile

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13 March 2009 @ 08:13 pm

*shudder*

Am I freaked out or what. I was complaining to myself about how much my muscles were aching (abs and inner thighs) because the substitute instructor who took my Pilates class last night was friggen ruthless. Everyone was like AHHHHHHHHHH IT HURTTTTTS and she was like "challenge yourself, your legs will thank you for it!"....well my legs aren't thanking me for it just yet. LOL. I can't even laugh right now because my abs scream in pain. It hurst worse than the first Pilates class I ever attended when I wasn't used to using those muscles. THAT INSTRUCTOR IS TOUGH!! T_T

But yeh, there I am complainging about aching muscles when nearby my street someone got hit by a friggen bus!

I didn't see it, but my parents were taking their nightly walk and saw it close to when it happened. The police weren't even there yet but the ambulance was arriving. It was opposite the bustop I use every morning... I was looking at that exact place this morning when I was swearing in my head coz my bus was over 10 minutes late... To think that 10 hours later someone got badly hurt there... It really creeps me out. Like "it could be you next..."

I dunno if the person was even alright! My mum said they had super dark hair, most likely Asian, and was lying without moving like halfway to the side of the bus. I don't know exactly what happened but it goes without saying that they would have deinitely been hit. I am realllllly upset, obviously. Even though I don't know that person, having such a close connection to the area I am in every morning makes me even more worried than normal for some reason. I'm seriously gonna pray a billion times tonight that whoever it was doesn't lose their life tonight. It would be just way too sad. T_____T

And so I am letting out my concern here so it doesn't bubble inside of me all night and increase my anxiety. God knows I don't need anymore anxiety... (Yeh, I pigged out on sushi for dinner and now at the back of my mind I can already feel my subconscious thinking I'll get food poisoning from it. >____> Fucking anxiety disorders.)

*starts praying for the poor bus victim*

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12 March 2009 @ 12:32 pm

FUN WITH AUSSIE SLANG!! lols~

Gosh, this is gonna be such a random post, but I'm completely amused so here I go.

I was talking with

haengbokyunho and it made me remember how strange all us Aussies are hahah. Like how loud we are and how laid-back we are and how crude we are lols. And we have the WEIRDEST slang.. seriously. I'd never really thought about it before, because when you spend your life growing up here it just seems normal. It's only when you talk to people from overseas that you realise 'wow they have no idea what I am talking about! Is that just used in Australia?!''

SO LEMME RANT ABOUT AUSSIE SLANG. XD

( How to make words sound Australian XD... )

And I have no idea if these are just Australian saying, but they are so common to me and only now do I realise how STRANGE they would sound to someone else!

- No worries!
- I'm can't be stuffed going this arvo...
- That surfie is wearin budgie smugglers!
- I was so bloody pissed off my face yesterday!
- Have you put the snags on the barbie yet?
- How bodgy were those Tim Tams!
- That bloke's acting is shit house!
- Yesterday my engine carked it!
- I'm going to chuck a sickie so I can go to the concert!
- That dipstick tried to crack onto me!
- How feral was the guy in sunnies last night!
- Good onya for giving it a burl!
- Those bloody journos are back taking a squizz?
- Did you just knock me for telling a porkie?

HAHAHHA I have fun with those XDDDD. When I look over them I realise how weiiiiird they sound! I bet they wouldn't make much sense at all to non-Aussies. No wonder we get embarrassed all the time when people from overseas want to know our culture! XDDD

AND to end this Aussie rant, I found one of my fav Aussie beer ads on youtube. Damn, this ad was amazing. People actually running in a field as beer being swallowed into the stomach.... AMAZIIING!!! I remember when this used to be shown on TV. I would automatically stop whatever I was doing just to watch it. I remember I even paused what I was doing on LJ to watch it. XDDD

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14 February 2009 @ 07:00 pm

V-day

hehehe I'm such a tool. As soon as I woke up today, instead of focusing on the grim fact that it was feb 14th - ie. SIngle Awareness Day, I kept staring at my YunJae pictures and saying HAPPY VALENTINES DAY YUNAE!!! I said this statement over and over again throughout the day.

Very sad, I know.

But still, I hope they have a good day together and at least not fight or anything. XD

YUNJAE, STAY STRONG MY DARLINGS! ^___~

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09 February 2009 @ 02:40 pm

Phobia VS Fire

For once I'm not going to spend long talking about me and how psychologically f**ked up I am right now, lol! Latest newflash, I'm dealing with the IBS fine but have developed a friggen PHOBIA OF FOOD! HAHAHHA. Yes. I have to laugh otherwise I'm gonna cry again. So HAHAHAH to me.

( I don't want to waste space talking about me... ergh )

But enough about me. Lemme just say right now that my heart goes out to the ~~108~~ 126 that have been confirmed dead in Victoria, the state underneath mine.

The large amount of bushfires terrorising Victoria is so devastating. So far 108 people have been confirmed dead. It's the worst natural disaster we've had in terms of fatalities and extent of destruction. Every time I turn the TV on all I see is flames (said to reach TEN STOREY'S HIGH!), tears, destruction and death tolls rising.

Yesterday afternoon the death toll was 35 dead and that shocked me. By the time I went to bed it had flown up to 85 people dead. When I woke up this morning it was in the hundreds!!! There are still so many people missing that the death toll could easily keep rising up to 170 deaths. Whole families are perishing!! Either they get trapped in their home or when they try to escape in their car the fire storm is just too quick and surrounds them. What a way to end your life. I get so upset thinking about it - especially since it's believed that a lot of the main fires were deliberately lit!

And god dammmn it's so devastating! When our primeminister was making a speech about it he was so emotional he could barely get the words out until he did the whole 'this is mass murder' line. Talk about making me more emotional than I was to start with!

In just one suburb/area alone there were 550 homes destroyed. I get teary thinking about all the people without homes. I mean it's hard enough that Australia is in drought and also experiencing the economic recession, but now this had to happen. One guy's wife and children are missing. They were last seen running through the house when the fires swept through the area. No one has seen them since. He's just one out of the many waiting to hear if their loved ones made it through. It is really, really, really upsetting.

Thank you to all of the firefighters working their butts off to help try and get the fires under control. It warms my heart that all of the Aussie states and New Zealand are pitching in to help send in reinforcements and what not. I just hope that soon this tragedy can end. I hate that it just gets worse and worse and the fires are still out of control in many areas. To the arsonists who may have started these fires: I hope you are f**king happy.

EDIT: Oh great, as soon as I posted this it was announced: At 14.35pm today the official death toll was 126. The toll is expected to rise. Will there be no end? T____T

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01 February 2009 @ 10:58 am

FUNNIEST DREAM!!!!

Oh mannnn did I have the two funniest dreams last night!! Which is awesome since I went to bed feeling a little under the weather as always.

Anyhoo... I think I figured out just how my brain worked to give me those dreams. I musssst write it down here so I can always remember the crack!!!! :D

( My cracky DBSK dreams... )

Do you know why these dreams are amazing though? It's the FIRST TIME I have ever had a dream about dbsk WITHOUT YUNHO BEING IN IT! Yunho, the stalker of my dreams, went on vacation! O_O

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