I am so, so, so, so, SO relieved right now!! I thought lots of things were wrong with me mentally and physically... I was getting worried that I'd somehow changed into some crazy person but it turns out they are just side effects of the medication I am taking for my anxiety! I thought it was meee!! THANK GOD~!!!!

The side effects I am feeling (but didn't realise they were just side effects XD):
- sensitive stomach/heart burn
- Non-existent libido. (Seriously... It disappeared completely. I'm not highly sexual as a person but I did have my fair share of horny moments when reading certain Yunjae fics LMAO. But now I feel indifferent even in the hottest smut... How I suffer! T___T)
- Constant yawning. (I thought I was a freak or something!!! But no, constant yawning is extremely common! :D)
- Drowsiness 24/7, mixed with need to sleep 24/7 lol. Honestly, no wonder every day I sleep for like 3 hours before dinner is laid out despite having a perfect night's sleep. >___>
- Short-term memory loss & difficulties concentrating. (My head is a fog.. It's been really hard coping with that during university days. It's hard to even write my own fic! T_T)
- No energy (pfft, I hate having no energy...
- Need to eat a lot (which means I have to be careful I don't start putting on weight -_-;;)


But after talking to my dad (thank god he's a scientist XDDD) I think I can understand why all of those side effects happen. The drug is one that slows down the brain so that anxiety is reduced... If the brain function slows down of course there is gonna be mega drowsiness and short-term memory loss. And if there is lack of energy then of course people would have problems reaching orgasms.... LMAO why am I even mentioning all of that here? I'm sort of fascinated by it I guess... XD

So yes. I am not a freaky person, I am just suffering side effects from taking the highest dose of Lexapro available. WHAT A RELIEF is all I can say! =3